My heart is heavy
Can’t find words to explain the pain I feel.
Within me, time appears to stand still.
My body does not care to move. I do not care.
I breathe in and breathe out, but I feel guilty
for being able to, when others no longer can.
How and why – no explanation would satisfy.
I look around, see that life goes on – for others,
but not for me – I’m at a standstill.
A walk on the beach, it always helps…
But there are memories there, too.
Remembering happy times amid the tears
With painful starkness, I realize
That I will always miss you.